Sooo, hmmm. After I chucked up my wonderful breakfast of Kashi Go Lean Crunch cereal and banana(I just love that stuff. ) I was scared to eat until noon. I felt perfectly fine afterwards, but I didn’t want to do it again. Besides, I was at work, and couldn’t very well pause in the middle of pushing with a patient and say, “hold that baby in, I’ve got to throw up.” I had chicken noodle soup with some crackers for lunch(trying to be on the safe side) and some grapes. But the grapes made my stomach churn again so…… But I kept them down. Then by 4 pm, I was starving! I had a snack, but went right to the gym like I planned. I’m feeling ok now. I think. But you know my mind is going a mile a minute. What if?????????????
I AM NOT GOING TO SAY IT! I was having a perfectly OK cycle with the “I don’t really care” blues, now I am going to go off the deep end! Hell, I’m feeling nauseated right now just thinking about it!
Maybe it was a one time thing. Maybe it was the chicken I had last night. Or maybe the milk wasn’t really any good. I don’t know. I am reaching for all other possibilites here. ALL OF THEM! I was making plans to quit my job! If I’m….you know, I have to stay for the benefits and the FMLA!
Ok OK. It’s going to be alright…………But you know what they say about best laid plans.