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Decisions

Grad School.

I’ve decided( basically) that I’m going.

The question that still remains is:

To do what?

I’m going back for nursing.  After all, why waste all of the hard work of the last 11 years?

The REAL question is:

Midwife or Nurse Practitioner?

I’ve always wanted to be a midwife.

But I’m scared.

See, I don’t know if I’m ready for all of that responsibility.

I don’t know if I want it.

I love love love delivering babies.  LOVE MY JOB.

I just hate the conditions under which I do it.

But in the last few weeks, I’ve been wondering how it would feel to be in a different role.

To be the one actually delivering the babies.

To be the one actually making the decisions.

Am I ready for that?

Or should I be a Nurse Practitioner and just work in a Doctors office where I’ll have regular hours, no call, no weekends and no holidays?

What do I want to do??

Should I go with the predictable? Should I go with my heart even though my life would still be unpredictable in a way? A life of missing holidays, birthdays and gatherings due to being on call/working?

Or should I not even worry about that and just go with what I love? What I’ve wanted to do since nursing school?

Am I ready for the next hellish 2 1/2 years if I do so?

Am I prepared to spend upwards of 50 K to get an education?

Am I prepared to have a complete change in lifestyle?

Isn’t it time to shit or get off the pot?

Sigh.

Decisions Decisions.

 

Julia Henderson

Wednesday 14th of September 2011

When it comes to decision making you have to be careful, because it might be an ending of regrets. You are actually right, you must follow your heart in doing things that you are happy and you really want it. We are the author of our life story and you must make the most of every chapters of it.

Handy Man, Crafty Woman

Friday 29th of April 2011

Tough decision!! I hope you decide soon. Came over (late!) from the SITS comment hour.

Kimberly

Thursday 28th of April 2011

Congrats on going back to school! I hope you follow your heart :) (Stopping by from SITS)

2Commentaristas

Thursday 28th of April 2011

Would you rather marry the love of your life or settle for a "good" man. I would bet you would not hesitate one single second in answering. Same for your life's passion. Always go with what is in your heart. Even if you fail, or abandon it after a while, you will never ever wonder "what if...." or say "I should have." Stopping over from #commenthour, but not new to your site! :)

Annissa

Thursday 28th of April 2011

Seriously - GOOD FOR YOU - it's a hard road, but I bet in the end, it'll be one of the best ones of your life!! GOOD LUCK!

stopping by via #commenthour :)