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I love IComLeavWe!!!! Thank you so much for all the comments and positive thoughts!  I have enjoyed reading everyone’s blogs and it is wonderful to have such support from this wonderful community of women!  I can’t wait to get to know everyone better! 

As for me.  I am doing better today.  C-Dub and I had what I like to call a “come to Jesus” moment this weekend. TTC for a year followed by a miscarriage can be hard on a marriage.   His fear is that I will never “get over” this and never be able to move on.  He is so optimistic about having another.  Soon.  Me, I want to but I am sooooo scared.  What if this happens again, and again?  Like I told him, I survived this time.  Barely.  I don’t know if I can again.

But like I said, I am better today than I have been since I found out that my baby was gone.  I am still struggling with the whys, but I am doing better.  I AM!

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    Trish
    December 22, 2008 at 10:05 pm

    I am so sorry your precious baby didn’t make it.
    I can say from experience you do get up, dust yourself off and hope again.

    It is very hard in the early days when the pain is so raw.
    I have a poem on my website now called Christmas angel and a quote

    “though in reality you were hardly there ~ in my heart you were everything”

    Merry Christmas & Take care of each other.

    Here from ICLW…No. 88
    My Little Drummer Boys

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    Danielle
    December 22, 2008 at 10:21 pm

    I’m so sorry you are feeling so down. I wish you peace in your heart and in your mind. I’m sending you some hugs!
    HUGS,
    -D *ICLW*

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    Annie
    December 22, 2008 at 11:46 pm

    I am so sorry you didn’t get to hold your baby in your arms and watch him or her grow up 🙁 It is hard. I’ve lost three babies to first trimester miscarriages and it doesn’t get any easier. I think every time I’ve said I can’t do this again, and then after some time I wanted to try again (the first couple of times it just took a month or two, with the last loss it took around 6 months before I felt ready to risk it again). It’s hard though, and it is scary, and it makes the next pregnancy full of anxiety and worry. There is just nothing easy about it (((hugs)))
    ICLW

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    lostintranslation
    December 23, 2008 at 4:34 am

    I’m sorry you had to go through this and I can understand your fear and apprehension. I’m glad you’re feeling a bit better though. Know that the IF blog community is here to support you. *ICLW*

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    awakeintheworld
    December 23, 2008 at 1:45 pm

    Fertility drama is very hard on a marriage. I’m so sorry for your loss.

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