Soooo, it’s day 21 in this 9th cycle and no sign of ovulation. I mean, come on body!!!! What is going on!!! I never ovulate this late! Usually, it’s around day 17 or 18. I am so confused this cycle. I guess it’s my fault for saying I wasn’t going to chart anything or pay attention this cycle and then changing my mind and becoming more obsessed than ever. Geez. I am stalking the message boards and other blogs and generally driving myself insane.
FF(fertility friend) had originally said that I ovulated on day 11. I did an OPK and even that was ambiguous by not being positive, but not quite negative either! Then, it was negative negative negative around the time I regularly ovulate. I’ve been seeing all kinds of CM but today, I really did see Egg White! I peeded on a OPK and a quick faint line appeared. Am I getting ready to ovulate now??? Did I already ovulate? Why aren’t my temps going up? On the other hand, I feel cramps like my AF is coming on. See what I mean!! I am so confused!!! Should I have sex tonight?
And there ladies and gentlemen is the problem. When did having sex with my husband become solely about will it get me pregnant? That’s why I was supposed to be taking a break this summer. But noooooo……
I need something to happen though, or I am really going to loose my mind.