Nothing new in baby making news. I guess I am in the “Waiting to O” stage. I was saying that I was going to take Musinex this month to increase EWCM, but I don’t know. I don’t feel like being bothered. I haven’t taken my temps in the last two days, and I had a ton of Tequila at a friend’s house last night(she is going through a nasty divorce, and needed it!). I am sort of ambivalent right now about this cycle. I’m almost at the “who cares” stage. But I do want to know if I ovulate. But that’s about all.
For some reason, this last cycle took a lot out of me emotionally and mentally. I want to take a break, but I am so obsessive compulsive about all of this that I literally cannot do it! I say I’m going to take a break from the message boards, and I just keep going back. The boards are a double edged sword. They can be very supportive, very informative, and very depressing.
So, I’m kind of in limbo. I’m trying to redirect my focus towards weight loss. I am telling myself that weight loss should be the priority, that it will make me a healthier person overall, and therefore help me to have a healthy pregnancy. But my brain recognizes bullshit. Exercise does help with the stress.
Anyway, that’s all for now.