14 weeks

So, I just kind of sorta outed myself on Facebook.  Now, I didn’t post in my status “I’m pregnant” or anything.  I just posted a photo of me holding my bump “looking” kind of pregnant.  Ha Ha.  I admit, I’m a chicken.  People are going to start finding out.  I might as well give them a hint.  I guess.  Now I wish I could take the picture off. 

Oh well.

Today, we are 14 weeks!!! Yeah!

I am starting to wander more into the baby sections of stores.  Browsing.  I still can’t bring myself to buy anything.  But I look.  I am planning to start cleaning out “the room” this weekend.

Scary.

I am getting more comfortable saying, “when the baby comes.”

I am starting to save for maternity leave.

I am going to start exercising again, because hey, this baby seems like he/she is firmly lodged in there.

C-Dub and I had an interesting conversation last night about parenting.

I am getting more comfortable saying “I am pregnant.”

Wow.  I’ve come a long way.

But…..

I still check my underwear obsessively.

I still poke at my boobs on any given day to see if they are still sore.

I enjoy indigestion and heartburn.

I still have the obsessive need to check for the baby’s heartbeat every other minute.

I still think….what if?????

So, three steps forward, one step back.

But it’s OK.

Positive thinking.

Because today I am pregnant.  I am pregnant today.  I will be pregnant tomorrow, and next week, and next month…….you get my drift.