Being Optimistic
It’s been a long week and the end of the month at that.
I can’t believe that June is over already. Where does the time go?
I talked to my manager the other day and finally got it out of her that she is almost positive that I will be going to dayshift in mid August.
Soooo, while I’m cautiously,deliriously, happy, I have one issue…..
My Husband.
CDub works about a hour’s drive away from home. Without rush hour traffic.
My problem is: will he be able to pick up Pookah by 6pm when his school closes?
It’s an issue we have been working though on how to handle for the last week or so. If he goes in REALLY early, he can leave early and get there on time. But traffic can just kill plans to get anywhere on time in Atlanta. SMH
He assures me that he will, but felt compelled to point out to me the other day that Pookah will spend more time in daycare…
As if I didn’t feel guilty enough.
I feel awful that
1. I won’t see him before I leave for work( since I’ll be leaving at 6 am)
2. By the time I get home, it will be time for him to go to bed.
3. And that will happen 3 days a week.
But, I have to do this. Even though I’ve caused yet another upheaval in our lives by going to dayshift, I think in the long run, it will be better for us all. My sanity, my health and my life depends on it really. I’m holding on by a string and I know my little family of 3 can’t take much more. Something has got to give, and I think if I can actually SLEEP more than 4 hours at a time, I could be a much more productive, happy, and saner person. After all, a mother who has energy to play and read stories and be engaged is better than one who is irritated, depressed and sleep deprived.
And I think that C-Dub will appreciate it more when he notices that I have more energy for household duties and extracurricular activities……
Anyway, we’ve got until August to work this all out. I’m so optimistic this time, I think it’s going to finally work out!
In the meantime, I must confess that I didn’t pick up my big girl camera all week long. Even though I got my 50mm 1.4. I think it’s a combination of not enough time and no motivation. I’ve got a few ideas and plans and lists to help me get back on track. We’ll see if they work!
But….I did have my iPhone! And so my Project 52 photo is from my iPhone, because I love it. Really love it.
Project 52:Week 26
Hooray for day shift! After we move, I will work 12 hour day shifts, too. (With call, typical OR.) But the way I look at it is that when I am gone, I am gone all day. I may get home in time for bedtime, but that is it. (Oh yeah, and I have to try to explain call to a toddler. Hmmm….)
But when I am home it will be quality time. I will be able to put all my attention on my child. Well, most of it. I am still trying to find a gym with child care for my sanity. Apparently it is harder than one would expect.
I hope you can work out the day care situation. That is probably the most frustrating thing! Is there someone else who could pick him up for you and watch him until daddy get home? Good luck!
You’re so right. If you aren’t rested or happy in your current state you won’t be productive. I think things will smooth themselves out once you start day shift and your entire family will benefit from it.
Goodness! Even your iPhone photos are gorgeous!
Hugs and Mocha,
Stesha
Awwwwwwwwww. I felt you mommy guilt reading this. I know daycare dilemma too well. Especially when you have to work. SMH! But if you believe going to te day shift is going to an all around great thing for you and your family… awesome.
My finger and toes are crossed I am happy and when we know for sure I will drink to that. 3 days a week is not so bad for him to be there all day some parents have to do that all 5 days so don’t feel guilty at all
I hope it all works out the way you need it to. Fingers crossed. That lens is so amazing. Hope you fall in love with it too. Also this shot is perfection. Pretty lighting and handsome boy. Happy friday!
Praying that day shift and the schedule works out for you guys.
I’m sure everything will just fall into place. Congratulations on getting the day shift. Sleep is paramount!
How I hope that the the day shift and the schedule works out in favor of both of you. You will at least get ample time to sleep during the night.
I hope things work out as planned. That would be awesome. He’s such a cutie pie.