ICLW

Hey everyone visiting from ICLW!

Just a little background.

C-Dub and I had been TTC since October of 2007.  After a whole year of charting, opks, and everything else, we finally managed to get pregnant, only to find out there was no heartbeat the day before Thanksgiving last year.  I had my D&C and had been trying to  move on from the hurt and depression of loosing the baby and having to start all over again, all the while being a L&D nurse.  At the same time, the same week as the miscarriage, my hubby got laid off.  So for four months, we had been dealing  with loss and me being the only one working.  Hard.

But surprise surprise, just when I had decided to take a break, I got pregnant again.  Things were looking up, and C-Dub got two job interviews in  the same week.  Alas, he had decided in a weak, stupid moment, to smoke some weed, and of course, when the drug tested him…..you can guess the rest.  he has the 3rd interview today and I can only hope that  there is no drug testing involved in this corporate job that pays more than I ever imagined him making. 

So here I am, 8 weeks pregnant, still scared shitless that at any moment this pregnancy will go the way of the last one., with a jobless husband who might not be able to get hired due to a bad choice on a Sunday afternoon. 

Thanks for reading.