SOC Sunday: Not so Hot to Trot…..

Before you start reading this, please make sure no kids are reading over your shoulder. Seriously.  I was a little sleepy when I wrote this, and didn’t edit so…..its coming straight out of my brain onto the screen….

I have no sex drive.  This is the sad truth of my life right now.  Where did it go? Right in the trash with the empty birth control packaging.  Yes, I got back on the pill after the nuva ring didn’t feel really….normal to me anymore after having the baby.  Don’t know why. I had a damn C Section.  Anyway, I chose Sesonique.  And I now have no sex drive. Nada. Zilch. None.  Just the thought  makes me shudder and that’s so sad.  I used to be what you might say is passionate, unrestrained, always wound up, excited, ablaze, basically oversexed.   That song by Janet “Anytime, anyplace”? That was me.  My poor husband has no clue what is going on.  Its a complete 360.  My thing is, something has got to give.  I’m just not ready for another bambino at this time, so I need SOMETHING.  But I know my OBGYN is going to KILL me when I tell her I want to try SOMETHING, ANYTHING else. Because all of the work I have to do just to get worked up is not working for me!  I mean dayum! Can a sista get horny around here? If you couldn’t tell, this is really really bothering me.  My husband is cute. Kinda hot really.  I really, in my mind want to give him some.  But when ever he even touches me in that way, my brain is like, man you better back up off me! Sigh. SMH. This could be why I’m so bitchy around here.  And him too. And that is not the way to be. Stella needs her groove back over here folks.  I’m dying. Help! Is my five minutes up yet?

This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…

• Set a timer and write for 5 minutes only.
• Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
• Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
• Add the Stream of Consciousness Sunday badge to your post.
• Link up your post at allthingsfadra.com.
• Visit your fellow bloggers and show some love.