Since it’s near his birthday, since its Saturday night,since I’m at work and therefore can’t do anything and since it’s been a while, Pookah is sick. And of course, C-Dub, being a man, and egged on by my sister in law( who is saying, yes, you should be home on weekends so that C-Dub gets some time off since he works Monday through Friday and you only work 3 nights. Really? Who asked you?) Anyhoo, keep in mind I’m writing this at 242 am. At work. Because I’m really stressed.
I’m so stressed right now. I m at work(as usual). I get the patient from hell( really sweet,but she has cardiac issues and keeps passing out) and then I get the text from Cdub that Pookah is throwing up. Sigh. I’m worried about that, I’m worried about my patient passing out while pushing. She keeps getting lightheaded. The baby is not moving down the birth canal, we’ve been pushing for two hours. Then C-Dub keeps texting me,I call him get the story. I’m worried. I’m now doing a c section. I get smart mouthed text messages from CDub while I’m trying to count laps. I’m trying to keep it all together and be mom and nurse and not go off on my husband at the same time. I’m stressed. Then I get out of the c section, get more smart mouth, and when I mention it, it gets worse. Why is he so moody lately? I mean, I’m doing everything he asks. Everything I know how to do, but still. I’m just so stressed. I hope coming off of weekends is the answer because I can’t do this much longer without seriously blowing. And then, I’m afraid of what all may come out of my mouth. Because once you say something, you can’t take it back. It lives. You remember, he remembers. And damn it,he has a longer memory than me. I’m worried about my little baby boy.
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