I was driving to the grocery store this morning to pick up my groceries and since it was Sunday, I was looking for some gospel to play. My apple iTunes always has that “tailored for your taste” section. It had a list of gospel today ( it knows me so well) so I just tapped it without looking.
Peace Be Still by James Cleveland came on.
It's the song I joined the church on. I was 16. My Daddy sang in the Male Chorus and I remember it clearly that they played it that day. I had been debating joining the church and as I do, I made a bargain with God that if they sang that song that week, I would go up and join. They didn't sing it all service but when the call to alter started, the opening bars came on and my favorite soloist( besides my Daddy) stepped up. I remember looking at the ceiling like: well ok God. LOL
Anyway, the song came on in the car and I suddenly found myself crying. The song made me think of my Daddy so hard. And took me back. It didn't help that yesterday I heard one of his favorite songs early in the morning randomly : Gee Wiz by Carla Thomas. He used to wear that song out! I didn't cry yesterday morning when I heard it. Usually I just turn the station when it comes on. But CDub had it playing so I let it go and moved on. I thought i was finally ok.
But Peace Be Still got me.
It will be 2 years next month.
I miss him. I miss his laugh, I miss his jokes, I miss his need to play the numbers at QT every time he came to my house. I miss the way he would call me to tell me the gossip before my mother could. I miss his obsession with pork skins and his unwavering support of anything I did.
I miss him.
This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…
- Set a timer and write for 5 minutes.
- Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. This is writing in the raw.
- Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
- JUST DO IT
Just in case you have never heard the song before….