This is just random writing at 4 am at work during some down time. I was on Facebook( yes, we can still get on here) and saw photos of two of my friends at the club. Both new moms. Babies 2 and 6 months old. And I was jealous.
A friend of mine just had a baby about 2 months ago. In these last two months, she has done more traveling than I’ve done in the last almost two years of my child’s life. She went to Miami when the baby was less than a month old( didn’t someone tell her you don’t take a newborn anywhere until it’s had its shots?). Then she flew to Cananda when the baby was barely a month old. Then she went to Ohio when the child was about a month and a half. She’s got one month left for maternity leave, who knows where she will go next. And the whole time, she’s loosing weight, she’s going to the club, she’s having fun. Wow. Im jealous. Kinda. I mean, I don’t get to do any of those things anymore. And her man(not her husband) doesn’t work. So it’s all HER money they are spending. Her limited funds. I’m not jealous of that situation, but I’m wondering how is she doing all of this? Is this just her way to show her man that she is still fun despite the fact that she had his baby? Or is she trying to prove something to herself? And the rapid weight loss? What is she taking? is she eating? Everytime I see her on Facebook, there is a drink in her hand. She really isn’t still breastfeeding. But the weight loss is astounding. Ok, this is getting really random. 5 minutes isn’t up yet? But anyway. I’m still kinda jealous that she has a life and I don’t. Where did I go wrong? Is it a matter of priorities or what? Just saying. I mean, I want to go out without Pookah every once and a while. Not every weekend like her, but every once and a while would be nice. I want to travel. I want to do things. I’m jealous, even though I know I shouldn’t be.
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Fadra
Saturday 27th of August 2011
It's totally okay to be jealous and good for you for admitting it. Just don't let it eat you up. One thing I've learned is that there is a story behind EVERYONE'S story. I once had a friend that took her 1 1/2 week old to the beach. REALLY?? Turns out she ended up having to stay in the hotel room the whole time. Wow. Who's surprised?
Also, I stayed totally grounded for 2 years. I couldn't deal with the travel. I sort of regret it but we're making up for lost time now.
rosesdaughter
Thursday 25th of August 2011
Mommy guilt is the true cause of my problems!!
rosesdaughter
Wednesday 24th of August 2011
Well, everyone has different circumstances of course. My thing is this: I know of her circumstances because she tells me. Constantly complaining. I'm not jealous of her situation. I would just like to get out sometimes. Everyone has a different set of priorities and circumstances. Not ALL of my friends are like this. Some are struggling with the same thoughts/circumstances as me. Mine just happens to be I want more of a social life and have no one to watch Pookah. that is what life has dealt me for now and I don't regret it. I don't have family here or really close friends who I could trust to watch him( the ones I do want to go out too) Yes life is what you make it. I put this out there because it was just a momentary "stream of consciousness" but didn't want to be bashed for my thoughts or feelings. Now, i appreciate your opinion, but until you've walked in my shoes.....
Christina
Monday 22nd of August 2011
Ole girl is doing too much, lol! I feel you on wanting to go out more, do more. Byron and I used to go to the movies, out to dinner, just out and about all the time. But once you have a child, it's not that easy to get up and go, especially if you don't have really close friends or family nearby that can care for your kids for you. *sigh* I dont have any suggestions, lol, but i can offer solidarity!
Asia
Monday 22nd of August 2011
Visiting from lady bloggers society. love ur blog!