I'm doing Fadra's Stream of Conciousness Sunday this week. Her writing prompt was : what are some things you wish you could blog about, but can't?
Up until this week, I categorically didn't talk about race.
Race is such a touchy sticky subject. It's hard for some people to understand how it is to live always being reminded of the color of your skin. Because no matter what I do, I am black first, woman second. It's hard to explain exactly how that feels to someone who is not a person of color. It's sticky, and I just don't like having to educate and explain how and why I feel about certain issues. How I've always had to be better than the best because I'm black. How I was teased when I was younger because I talked “white”. How education was my way out of ending up a statistic.
That reluctance to write about race is what kept me from speaking about the Trayvon Martin case for so long. I didn't want to hear, “well, he's black, he must have done something.” I didn't want to face the stereotypes. But I am raising a black boy in my household and I decided to stop hiding from race on my blog. I proud to be black woman. I come from people that have overcome slavery poverty, racism, and hatred. My opinions and experiences are colored by race. I can't help that. But I'm tired of not blogging about certain things and issues because it might be controversial. Like I said on twitter last week, if you dont like it, unfollow. I won't be in your face militant with it, but I won't hide from it either. Because some things are too important NOT to blog about.
This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…
- Set a timer and write for 5 minutes.
- Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
- Publish it somewhere. Anywhere. The back door to your blog if you want. But make it accessible.
- Add the Stream of Consciousness Sunday badge to your post.
- Link up at allthingsfadra.com
- Visit your fellow bloggers and show some love.