Tomorrow…………
Tomorrow, I’m going to the BIG ultrasound.
C-Dub is coming with me.
I’m excited, I’m scared. I’m nervous.
But why? I just saw him last week, he was FINE!
But every time the ultrasound probe comes towards me, I feel this dread, this unexplainable anxiety that he won’t be there.
I’ve got to get over this fear. I’ve got to.
I went into Babies R Us today, to look for a baby shower gift for a co-worker.
I.Was.OVERWHELMED.
To say the least.
I felt like a diabetic in a candy store. I wanted to buy Buy BUY.
Of course, I didn’t buy anything. Too scared.
Crazy huh?
Really, this was a crazy crazy day.
All I can do is keep the faith. And countdown until tomorrow.
I totally understand that fear. I’m terrified it’ll happen again.
You are so very NOT alone!!! I am 17 weeks with twins with history of a loss at 7 weeks. Terrified myself. I have been reading your blog since right before I got pregnant. I wish you and C-Dub and your miracle bundle lots of love and happiness!!!!!
thanks everyone!
oh yeah…yesterday I had a PNA and I was freaked b/c I thought doc wouldn’t be able to find the HB on the doppler. But he did, and all was well. Whew. Good luck at your BIG u/s. Mine is next week monday!
You sound so very normal to me. I’m nervous for you, too. I can’t wait until you hold your sweet baby in your arms.
So glad you posted–sending you peace.