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Tomorrow, I’m going to the BIG ultrasound.

C-Dub is coming with me.

I’m excited, I’m scared. I’m nervous.

But why?  I just saw him last week, he was FINE!

But every time the ultrasound probe comes towards me, I feel this dread, this unexplainable anxiety that he won’t be there. 

I’ve got to get over this fear.  I’ve got to.

I went into Babies R Us today, to look for a baby shower gift for a co-worker. 


To say the least. 

I felt like a diabetic in a candy store.  I wanted to buy Buy BUY.

Of course, I didn’t buy anything.  Too scared.

Crazy huh?

Really, this was  a crazy crazy day.

All I can do is keep the faith.  And countdown until tomorrow.


Tuesday 4th of August 2009

You sound so very normal to me. I'm nervous for you, too. I can't wait until you hold your sweet baby in your arms. So glad you posted--sending you peace.


Wednesday 15th of July 2009

oh yeah...yesterday I had a PNA and I was freaked b/c I thought doc wouldn't be able to find the HB on the doppler. But he did, and all was well. Whew. Good luck at your BIG u/s. Mine is next week monday!

Kathy S.

Wednesday 15th of July 2009

You are so very NOT alone!!! I am 17 weeks with twins with history of a loss at 7 weeks. Terrified myself. I have been reading your blog since right before I got pregnant. I wish you and C-Dub and your miracle bundle lots of love and happiness!!!!!


Wednesday 15th of July 2009

thanks everyone!


Wednesday 15th of July 2009

I totally understand that fear. I'm terrified it'll happen again.