Down and out……….

I think I’m out.  My temps have been plunging for the last few days.  Strangely, while I feel disappointed, I don’t feel that crushing sadness that I felt last month.  I am even kind of happy because I need to make some career changes and being pregnant right now would put a quick stop to that.  Also, it would put a stop to my weight loss.  Selfish huh?  Probably.  But I’ve been the most unselfish person in the world for the last 10 months. I’ve given up lots of things I love to do what’s “best” for my baby/body.  I have changed my whole lifestyle!  The very first thing I think of in the morning is…….what’s my temp today?  So, this month is a no go.  I’m not upset.  I’m not sad.  Hell, I really just don’t care.  No, that’s not true.  I care, but just not this month.  I have to make some changes in my professional life right now, soooooooo………It might be for the best.  But of course, if by some miracle AF doesn’t show…………..