Jealousy,Envy, Disgust,the one week wait, and hope

I am sooooo jealous.  There were three patients in the office today, who got their ultrasounds.

I WANT ONE!!!!

Anyway, patient #1: 6 weeks 3 days(just like me) got to see her little one.  Poor thing could barely function.  She had the all day morning sickness thing going on.  I’m jealous.

Patient #2:last OB check, had being trying to get pregnant for 10 years.  Now, at 40, she is pregnant with triplets.  And sooo sooo happy.  I am happy for her.

Now, Patient #3: First IVF after secondary infertility.  She is also pregnant with triplets.  This is the one,who when she found out she had triplets, started wailing:”But I thought it was only a 1% chance for triplets!!!”

I tried to explain “Sweetie, you are that 1%”

So, every ultrasound since then, she has been hoping against hope that one of the triplets had “vanished” or “died”.  It’s kind of sick really.  My doc offered her a chance to reduce, but she refuses.  So every week, she just hopes that one or two are gone. 

So sick.

I swear, I will be so glad when she is done and dismissed to her ob/gyn.

It’s so sad, because there are so many women who would LOOOOOOOOOVE to be in her place. 

Anyway, I am waiting.  7 days until my birthday and 7 days until I get to see my little gummy bear/jelly bean/sweet pea.  I am trying to speak only positivity into the universe right now.

C-Dub has a job interview on Thursday! A friend of his owns a company that writes resumes for people.  So, he re wrote C-Dub’s for FREE and he sent it out.  The same day, he got the interview!  I am soooo excited.  It’s paying more than he has EVER made. 

EVER.

I am afraid to be hopeful.    Just like with the ultrasound next week.

But, I am going to put it out there……..

C-Dub WILL get this job.

Next week, I will see my baby’s heart beating.

I will.  Because today I am pregnant, I am pregnant today.  I WILL be pregnant next week.  I WILL see my Baby’s Heartbeat.  I WILL have a happy healthy nine months.

I WILL meet my precious, happy, healthy baby in November.

I WILL!!!!