She’s back!!!
Well.
As you all know, I’ve been under the weather since Sunday. Nauseated, light headed, just icky feeling. So I took a test.
NEGATIVE!
There was only one pink line.
Gradually, I got better, but there were/are still moments of feeling “off”.
Well finally, this morning at 5 am, I got my reason,
Aunt Flo has returned. In all of her gut churning, cramping, messy glory.
Oh yuck.
On the one hand, I am happy about the return of my fertility. I was beginning to wonder after 10 months.
But then, I am also AFRAID. This means I can get pregnant again.
To me this is the stangest feeling. I spent almost 2 years trying my best to get pregnant by any means necessary. It feels strange to me that I am now once again actively NOT trying to be pregnant. I can’t even imagine having another one right now. I bow down in wonder at the women who do it. But me? We’re not ready over here!
Glad AF is back on track! And YES i DO feel crazy for going in for another round!
It is a VERY strange feeling to be actively PREVENTING pregnancy after so many months of TTC.
I got my first PP AF 3 months after Nellie. But I also was not breastfeeding then. And I hate her just as much now as I did then!
I’m not ready at all but I’m getting old…sigh. I said no babies after 35 and I’ll be 34 in three weeks. Rules are meant to be broken. I have no desire to be pregnant anytime soon!