I get to work last night and the first thing I do is check my email.
you see, it’s time to sign up for the June schedule.( Yes, we do things months in advance around here).
On Friday,I sent my manager an email asking if I could go ahead and sign up for the June schedule on days.
Fingers crossed, I clicked on her reply:
“Due to nightshift instability( which she created by letting 2 people go part time or prn,)I am unable to let you go to days at this time. Maybe in August when a few people have come back from medical leave. I have also been unable to find quality staffing to replace you. Thank you for your patience.”
I swear I felt like my head was going to explode. I felt lightheaded and I just knew my blood pressure was sky high at that very moment.
Everyone says I need to invent a good lie to get me to dayshift. Something about Pookah and having no childcare of something. I’m like what, The fact that I need to save my sanity and my marriage isn’t good enough?
I’m so frustrated. I’ve spent the whole shift trying desperately not to scream. or cry. Or both.
The question is:what do I do about it?
There are lots of jobs for nurses out there. But 90% of them are for nightshift. The rest are for evening positions 3-11 or 12 to 8. I saw ONE job for days at an old job. I used to say never but now….
I’m almost desperate. But I don’t want to make rash decisions even in my desperation.
But I’m soooo tired. Just so tired.