Motherhood is….
Guilt.
Today, your school let out early and I had to pick Pookah up and bring him home with me while I worked.
And while I am so so grateful that I can do this now, that I work from home,
I feel guilty.
Because for the next two weeks, he will be doing a lot of this.
Because I must keep him occupied and STILL work.
He’ll be spending a lot of his time playing games, watching TV, and playing on the iPad in an attempt to keep him occupied while I try to get things wrapped up before and after the holidays.
I’ll get a reprieve a few days when CDub is able to take off or work from home a few of those days.
I am grateful, I remind myself, that I can at least be here. That I don’t have pay someone to watch him, that I don’t have to juggle taking time off that I don’t have. That he and I can have lunch together everyday.
But still….
The guilt.
This month, that is motherhood.
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MJ
Tuesday 23rd of December 2014
Motherhood is GUILT! How true is this. I feel guilty about aomething every single day. Sometimes I cry. I need to be a part of this motherhood circle!
Jessica Mason
Monday 22nd of December 2014
The guilt, I know it well. Love the image, enjoy being home with him. And enjoy you lunch dates :)
Crystal Green
Sunday 21st of December 2014
I totally get that feeling all to well. I'm trying to finish up the year strong. I'm busting my tail end to get as much content out wrote between now and Christmas Eve that way come Christmas Eve I can shut down the computer until at least the 29th. That way I can focus on my family for the holiday week/end. At least that's my goal. We'll see what actually happens. It's so hard juggling it all. You're right, at least we get to see them and interact with them throughout the day. (Of course, right now I'm in the midst of trying to find work outside the home because I can't work the way I want here due to the kids always interrupting.)
Motherhood is filled with a lot of guilt, and we all go through it. You're doing fine I'm sure!!
LaShawn
Sunday 21st of December 2014
thank you so much for the encouragement!
Kita
Saturday 20th of December 2014
I feel guilty all the time but what I do is make sure I give them some time and do something with them each day so they can know they matter also. Like right now we are playing hide and seek and they haven't found me yet....................
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