Saturdays Week 8: On Mom Guilt and Pumpkins

Since Pookah is going to a new school, Fall Break is now a thing. Three days off that I couldn’t spend with him really because…well I work. C Dub works. I spend a lot of time worrying that I’m missing out on so many things since I work such long hours. Yes, I work from home and that gives me some flexibility…  but..I work. I often find my self envious of my stay at home mom friends. Oh yes, I know being a SAHM brings a whole new set of problems and issues, but sometimes I miss the well…flexibility of it. The ability to have the option to volunteer at his school, the option to give Pookah my full attention during homework time because I’m not trying to work and cook dinner at the same time, the option to be ready to plan do things with him on these school breaks and not have to manipulate my work schedule to do so, the energy to do more with him on the weekends. Just the TIME to spend watching this miracle I birthed grow up. I always feel like I’m loosing time because I spend a so much of it working.

He spent the majority of his fall break enjoying endless amounts of TV and video games which…kept him occupied while I worked.  Which of course made me feel like I lacking. So Saturday morning, I woke up determined to spend the day hanging out with him. Luckily, it was a bi week in football, so we could really DO something. I chose the pumpkin patch, he chose the movies.  It was a good day….